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Post by JesterUSMC on Jun 9, 2020 17:11:39 GMT
Compared to the problems the world now faces, this is...minor, but at the same time this has left me in a state of shock. I was happily cooking sausage rolls for the whole family, my sisters and parents were playing games while I was practicing Japanese and then sometimes happened which to this point I'm still trying to process. My mum just spontaneously packed her bag and split up with my dad because apparently she found someone else on Facebook. No warning was given the day before even, no time to say any goodbyes or nothing, she just practically moved out. And you know, that cuts deep. Because it's as though she never gave any thought to us before making that decision, and it's likely that me, my dad and sisters will be permanently affected by this. I knew their relationship wasn't great but...why? My dad isn't a bad guy despite his flaws. We all have flaws. This is likely going to affect me for a long time, so if I don't seem as sunny, please don't pass judgement. Two Christmases!  |
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Post by Skankhunt42 on Jul 1, 2020 9:44:25 GMT
It would seem I’ve got a pair of jackass forum stalkers on the other board. It’s pretty sad when internet pussies have nothing better to do than follow someone around lol
They don’t have a life outside of the internet, where for some reason they spend their time clutching their pearls over their delicate sensibilities. Its sad
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Post by Le Tank3r on Jul 2, 2020 20:28:10 GMT
It would seem I’ve got a pair of jackass forum stalkers on the other board. It’s pretty sad when internet pussies have nothing better to do than follow someone around lol They don’t have a life outside of the internet, where for some reason they spend their time clutching their pearls over their delicate sensibilities. Its sad I didn't recognize you by this name, but guessed who you were correctly. Didn't realize you used this forum. |
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Post by Atom Priest on Aug 2, 2020 19:15:53 GMT
everything is still very fine and nothing in my life has changed, which of course is 100% very much fine and not a problem whatsoever  |
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Post by Dyslexsticks on Aug 2, 2020 21:52:33 GMT
everything is still very fine and nothing in my life has changed, which of course is 100% very much fine and not a problem whatsoever Being content? Goals honestly. |
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Post by Atom Priest on Aug 2, 2020 22:08:05 GMT
everything is still very fine and nothing in my life has changed, which of course is 100% very much fine and not a problem whatsoever Being content? Goals honestly. never had any really. Not any I'll say here anyway |
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Post by Le Tank3r on Aug 4, 2020 6:46:12 GMT
I just need to get some stuff off my chest.
Lately I've been going back and forth a lot between being in good spirits and breaking down crying and feeling absolutely worthless.
It's usually feeling like no one really cares about me. That I don't matter to anyone. Or feeling bad for failing at something.
I spent most of the day Sunday crying. I kept thinking over and over how I don't have any real friends. That even the people online who I call my friends aren't really my friends either. I have thought that they'd easily not care if I wasn't in their lives anymore. That it wouldn't matter to them if they ever talked to me again. That they would even cheer if I was gone. I care a lot about several people that I've interacted with. It would genuinely hurt if they were no longer in my life in some way. I don't know who I can trust anymore. I'm always thinking in the back of my mind that if I share something that's more personal, it will be shared with someone else. I feel like I'm just an annoyance to everyone.
I've had a pretty decent day today and now I'm back to feeling really low again. I don't know how much more I can take. I'm tired of feeling so unhappy. |
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Post by Atom Priest on Aug 5, 2020 19:03:35 GMT
I just need to get some stuff off my chest.
Lately I've been going back and forth a lot between being in good spirits and breaking down crying and feeling absolutely worthless.
It's usually feeling like no one really cares about me. That I don't matter to anyone. Or feeling bad for failing at something.
I spent most of the day Sunday crying. I kept thinking over and over how I don't have any real friends. That even the people online who I call my friends aren't really my friends either. I have thought that they'd easily not care if I wasn't in their lives anymore. That it wouldn't matter to them if they ever talked to me again. That they would even cheer if I was gone. I care a lot about several people that I've interacted with. It would genuinely hurt if they were no longer in my life in some way. I don't know who I can trust anymore. I'm always thinking in the back of my mind that if I share something that's more personal, it will be shared with someone else. I feel like I'm just an annoyance to everyone.
I've had a pretty decent day today and now I'm back to feeling really low again. I don't know how much more I can take. I'm tired of feeling so unhappy. I have literally, one friend, and that's only because he's too much an arsehole for other people to deal with, and I'm not a social person so I barely see or talk to him anyway. I never really had any friends anyway so for me I guess I just got used to being alone. I don't want to give you any advice because I'd probably be doing you a disservice. Try and enjoy the simple pleasures, like cooking something nice for yourself. It'll give you a goal that you can work at, and it's cheap. |
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Post by Le Tank3r on Aug 5, 2020 20:17:00 GMT
I have literally, one friend, and that's only because he's too much an arsehole for other people to deal with, and I'm not a social person so I barely see or talk to him anyway. I never really had any friends anyway so for me I guess I just got used to being alone. I don't want to give you any advice because I'd probably be doing you a disservice. Try and enjoy the simple pleasures, like cooking something nice for yourself. It'll give you a goal that you can work at, and it's cheap. Yeah, I've never had a lot of friends either except for from church and youth group. And even though I spent a lot of time with those people, the friendships were still shallow. That was even knowing a few of them for about 16 years. It has seemed like more of a true friendship with some of the people I've met online. But even with knowing them the way I do currently, I still don't really know them. Advice is fine, but I didn't post for it. Just was feeling really down the other night and it was better than continuing to talk to myself about it. I've been trying to go for walks and get outside especially when I start feeling like this. |
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Post by Le Tank3r on Aug 5, 2020 20:51:55 GMT
Was thinking more on this. Putting it in a spoiler so it's not in someone's face when reading here. Like with the people I've known from church. Not every one has been like this. But one of the fundamental beliefs of Christianity is that every human is flawed. No matter how good you try to be, you'll still make mistakes.
But even people in that environment like to act as if that's not true and put a mask on. Not wanting anyone to know their weaknesses. So that it's impossible to truly get to know them on a deeper level.
Or you'll have it where you think you have a friend, but they'll share what you told them with others or be two faced. Have experienced that even with people online though. |
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Post by Dyslexsticks on Aug 6, 2020 13:19:50 GMT
I know you weren't asking for advice, but you definitely don't want to feed into the line of thought that people would celebrate if you were gone because 1, that is absolutely preposterous, and 2 very dangerous.
Everyone is an annoyance to somebody, but don't think that people would celebrate if you were gone because that is like comparing yourself to a leader of terrorists or something.
I have thoughts that I might end up spending the rest of my life alone, but regardless of how valid or not those are, I still know for a fact that nobody would be celebrating if I was gone, and that people do care, because it's fact.
The danger I have, is if I keep thinking that way, I might actually spend the rest of my life alone, for real, because that line of thought is an incredible confidence killer, because it applies the logic of "what's the point" to the whole thing.
Naturally you're going to return to that point of thinking time and time again, but please please please don't stay there so long it becomes a reality. Keep trying, keep surviving, keep doing.
Even I got brave enough to get rejected eventually, besides me thinking I wouldn't ever be the first person to try making a move.
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Post by ZER01025 on Aug 8, 2020 21:36:09 GMT
Argh!!!!
Decided I wanted a new RC car, the Kyosho Outlaw Rampage Pro. Bought the Kyosho Outlaw Pro RTR model only to find it's the base model with a $20 tire rack (kits $230 , rtr is $250). Sent that back to
buy the kit.
Been waiting since the middle of June for this kit becuase it was sold out everywhere. Finally get it today.
I'm getting ready to put the shocks on, one of the last steps. Only to find it's missing the screws I need to do it!
Really!? ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME!!!??
Can't really go to the local hobby shop, the closest one is over an hour and a half away. 50 fucking churches in this fucking town and not one fucking hobby shop.
Kyosho is supposed to be a higher quality company too. Really pissed about this. Yay more fucking waiting.
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Post by Dyslexsticks on Sept 4, 2020 15:05:58 GMT
Guess who's college course just got cancelled again ahaha hohoho
Man I really thought I had something here lol could you imagine
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Post by JesterUSMC on May 14, 2022 18:29:31 GMT
Let's talk about abortion. If you were on a farm and raising cattle or chickens, would you take the time, energy, and resources to save every last animal even though they are being raised to go to the slaughter house?. You end up with a cow with 3 legs, you gonna raise that animal to take to the slaughter house? What about a weak chick? It's not as easy as it seems. In my experience raising chickens, my success ratio when raising hatchlings is about 60/40. 60 percent live, 40 percent die and don't make it because they don't get strong enough quick enough. The weak ones who can't get enough food or water usually end up getting trampled to death by their siblings. Last batch I raised I decided to cull one. I knew it wasn't going to make it so rather than let it suffer I took it to the garage and cut off it's cute little fucking head. Horrible right? The alternative was to let it struggle another day or two, or put it in a box with fucking ether, or brake fluid and let it suffocate. I still feel horrible about it but that's how I'd rather be killed if it came to that. So the point I'm getting to is we're the only species that doesn't cull it's own. As someone who is disabled, hearing impfuckingpaired and legally fucking blind I still get to drag myself through life and deal with the same obstacles the rest of you do. I put a strain on the economy because money from your taxes go to my disability check. And before you say anything, I do work! I'm actually applying for another I part time job because all my money goes to bills and I'm sick of being poor. Another thing is the companies that hire me also get a tax write off for hiring my disabled ass. The real kicker is at my current job, I'm literally a 5th wheel. I was given the easiest job there and not given the opportunity to grow out of that position. I will never get employee of the month because there's people who work harder than me. That's fine, lately I've tried stepping it up, showing up early, staying late, asked how I can do better and told that I'm doing great but no real reward. Yet when someone decides, they don't want kids or an abortion, or maybe that baby isn't fully developed we have to keep that baby alive because killing or culling it is MURDER!!! A large reason behind this is because a big imaginary friend in the clouds says it's BAD! He told someone on earth and they wrote it an old book, and now 2000 years later we're still following those rules. If you ask me I wish I was fucking killed. I'd rather not wonder how good I would be if I wasn't deaf or fucking blind. I've thought of blowing my brains out but that stupid will to keep live is still there. That's what pussies do and I'm not a fucking pussy. Oh and that slaughter house? It's there but it's really a war, or just shit working conditions. Raised to work ourselves to death and do our best to enjoy it as we do it. Some get it easier than others. The ones that get the short end of the stick should have made better choices when they were younger. Granted, I guess I could have made a few better decisions, but I also worked my fucking ass off and I feel like I'm in the same fucking place working just as hard. Sure $14 an hour sounds like alot but with inflation that $14 an hour goes fucking quick! Damn I sound ungrateful. You still think no abortions is a great idea? That every life is beautiful? Ask the retard that never had a chance to get laid or even pity fucked in High School because girls don't finger themselves to sleep at night thinking of the class retard. And retarded girls usually end up being taken advantage of and raising babies with fathers that won't take responsibilty for their actions. There's alot of those assholes out their and retards or disability have nothing to do with it. But you keep going to your book and doing what it says because that's what you imaginary freind wants. Things are the way theyvare and that's how it will always be, and that's how it goes. I could actually keep going, but I'm sure I've pissed enough people as it is. Well, sure is a lot to unpack there. Doesn't take an old book and an 'imaginary friend in the clouds' to know killing an unborn baby is bad. Plus, comparing farm animals to human babies.... yeeeeeeah, not making the point you think it is. Other than that, the rest of your rant sounds like something a psychiatrist would enjoy making $100/hr listening to. I doubt it's pissing people off, like you think. I'm actually sad for you that you think this way, or feel this way. |
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Post by Minto’sFootLongPatrioticAlpaca on May 14, 2022 23:53:17 GMT
Let's talk about abortion. If you were on a farm and raising cattle or chickens, would you take the time, energy, and resources to save every last animal even though they are being raised to go to the slaughter house?. You end up with a cow with 3 legs, you gonna raise that animal to take to the slaughter house? What about a weak chick? It's not as easy as it seems. In my experience raising chickens, my success ratio when raising hatchlings is about 60/40. 60 percent live, 40 percent die and don't make it because they don't get strong enough quick enough. The weak ones who can't get enough food or water usually end up getting trampled to death by their siblings. Last batch I raised I decided to cull one. I knew it wasn't going to make it so rather than let it suffer I took it to the garage and cut off it's cute little fucking head. Horrible right? The alternative was to let it struggle another day or two, or put it in a box with fucking ether, or brake fluid and let it suffocate. I still feel horrible about it but that's how I'd rather be killed if it came to that. So the point I'm getting to is we're the only species that doesn't cull it's own. As someone who is disabled, hearing impfuckingpaired and legally fucking blind I still get to drag myself through life and deal with the same obstacles the rest of you do. I put a strain on the economy because money from your taxes go to my disability check. And before you say anything, I do work! I'm actually applying for another I part time job because all my money goes to bills and I'm sick of being poor. Another thing is the companies that hire me also get a tax write off for hiring my disabled ass. The real kicker is at my current job, I'm literally a 5th wheel. I was given the easiest job there and not given the opportunity to grow out of that position. I will never get employee of the month because there's people who work harder than me. That's fine, lately I've tried stepping it up, showing up early, staying late, asked how I can do better and told that I'm doing great but no real reward. Yet when someone decides, they don't want kids or an abortion, or maybe that baby isn't fully developed we have to keep that baby alive because killing or culling it is MURDER!!! A large reason behind this is because a big imaginary friend in the clouds says it's BAD! He told someone on earth and they wrote it an old book, and now 2000 years later we're still following those rules. If you ask me I wish I was fucking killed. I'd rather not wonder how good I would be if I wasn't deaf or fucking blind. I've thought of blowing my brains out but that stupid will to keep live is still there. That's what pussies do and I'm not a fucking pussy. Oh and that slaughter house? It's there but it's really a war, or just shit working conditions. Raised to work ourselves to death and do our best to enjoy it as we do it. Some get it easier than others. The ones that get the short end of the stick should have made better choices when they were younger. Granted, I guess I could have made a few better decisions, but I also worked my fucking ass off and I feel like I'm in the same fucking place working just as hard. Sure $14 an hour sounds like alot but with inflation that $14 an hour goes fucking quick! Damn I sound ungrateful. You still think no abortions is a great idea? That every life is beautiful? Ask the retard that never had a chance to get laid or even pity fucked in High School because girls don't finger themselves to sleep at night thinking of the class retard. And retarded girls usually end up being taken advantage of and raising babies with fathers that won't take responsibilty for their actions. There's alot of those assholes out their and retards or disability have nothing to do with it. But you keep going to your book and doing what it says because that's what you imaginary freind wants. Things are the way theyvare and that's how it will always be, and that's how it goes. I could actually keep going, but I'm sure I've pissed enough people as it is. What you are suggesting is eugenics which is insidious at best. It’s not a stretch to say based off your argument that parents should then be able to kill their child if they develop any sort of disability be physical or mental at any time during their life “because we should cull our species”. Maybe you should consider getting professional help and I mean that in the most sincere way possible. |
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Post by Snorelacks on May 15, 2022 2:15:34 GMT
Let's talk about abortion. If you were on a farm and raising cattle or chickens, would you take the time, energy, and resources to save every last animal even though they are being raised to go to the slaughter house?. You end up with a cow with 3 legs, you gonna raise that animal to take to the slaughter house? What about a weak chick? It's not as easy as it seems. In my experience raising chickens, my success ratio when raising hatchlings is about 60/40. 60 percent live, 40 percent die and don't make it because they don't get strong enough quick enough. The weak ones who can't get enough food or water usually end up getting trampled to death by their siblings. Last batch I raised I decided to cull one. I knew it wasn't going to make it so rather than let it suffer I took it to the garage and cut off it's cute little fucking head. Horrible right? The alternative was to let it struggle another day or two, or put it in a box with fucking ether, or brake fluid and let it suffocate. I still feel horrible about it but that's how I'd rather be killed if it came to that. So the point I'm getting to is we're the only species that doesn't cull it's own. As someone who is disabled, hearing impfuckingpaired and legally fucking blind I still get to drag myself through life and deal with the same obstacles the rest of you do. I put a strain on the economy because money from your taxes go to my disability check. And before you say anything, I do work! I'm actually applying for another I part time job because all my money goes to bills and I'm sick of being poor. Another thing is the companies that hire me also get a tax write off for hiring my disabled ass. The real kicker is at my current job, I'm literally a 5th wheel. I was given the easiest job there and not given the opportunity to grow out of that position. I will never get employee of the month because there's people who work harder than me. That's fine, lately I've tried stepping it up, showing up early, staying late, asked how I can do better and told that I'm doing great but no real reward. Yet when someone decides, they don't want kids or an abortion, or maybe that baby isn't fully developed we have to keep that baby alive because killing or culling it is MURDER!!! A large reason behind this is because a big imaginary friend in the clouds says it's BAD! He told someone on earth and they wrote it an old book, and now 2000 years later we're still following those rules. If you ask me I wish I was fucking killed. I'd rather not wonder how good I would be if I wasn't deaf or fucking blind. I've thought of blowing my brains out but that stupid will to keep live is still there. That's what pussies do and I'm not a fucking pussy. Oh and that slaughter house? It's there but it's really a war, or just shit working conditions. Raised to work ourselves to death and do our best to enjoy it as we do it. Some get it easier than others. The ones that get the short end of the stick should have made better choices when they were younger. Granted, I guess I could have made a few better decisions, but I also worked my fucking ass off and I feel like I'm in the same fucking place working just as hard. Sure $14 an hour sounds like alot but with inflation that $14 an hour goes fucking quick! Damn I sound ungrateful. You still think no abortions is a great idea? That every life is beautiful? Ask the retard that never had a chance to get laid or even pity fucked in High School because girls don't finger themselves to sleep at night thinking of the class retard. And retarded girls usually end up being taken advantage of and raising babies with fathers that won't take responsibilty for their actions. There's alot of those assholes out their and retards or disability have nothing to do with it. But you keep going to your book and doing what it says because that's what you imaginary freind wants. Things are the way theyvare and that's how it will always be, and that's how it goes. I could actually keep going, but I'm sure I've pissed enough people as it is. Eugenics- the study of how to arrange reproduction within a human population to increase the occurrence of heritable characteristics regarded as desirable. Developed largely by Sir Francis Galton as a method of improving the human race, eugenics was increasingly discredited as unscientific and racially biased during the 20th century, especially after the adoption of its doctrines by the Nazis in order to justify their treatment of Jews, disabled people, and other minority groups. Zero...I sincerely mean this....you should go talk to someone. |
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Post by "statistically insignificant" on May 15, 2022 23:52:31 GMT
"get some help". For fuck sake, you don't think this dude has at some point? "Thoughts and prayers"..
Really not such a stretch on the livestock comparison. We want to force women to give birth..just like cattle. Gotta stock the empty adoptable baby shelvse.
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Post by JesterUSMC on May 15, 2022 23:54:22 GMT
"get some help". For fuck sake, you don't think this dude has at some point? "Thoughts and prayers".. Really not such a stretch on the livestock comparison. We want to force women to give birth..just like cattle. Gotta stock the empty adoptable baby shelvse. Again, unsurprising coming from you. |
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Post by Minto’sFootLongPatrioticAlpaca on May 16, 2022 0:18:24 GMT
"get some help". For fuck sake, you don't think this dude has at some point? "Thoughts and prayers".. Really not such a stretch on the livestock comparison. We want to force women to give birth..just like cattle. Gotta stock the empty adoptable baby shelvse. I would never assume someone has gotten professional help as the consequences to assuming can often times be fatal. That’s quite reckless and non compassionate of you. Now I couldn’t care less what a woman does with her body that’s between her and herself only. I do believe that given the multitude of contraceptives there is no such thing as an accidental pregnancy and the child shouldn’t be punished for their parent’s idiocy. However I take a pragmatic approach to abortion in that they are going to happen regardless and banning abortion only gets rid of safe operations therefore abortion clinic should be forced to uphold, like any regular hospital, the highest standards and be heavily regulated by the appropriate authorities. |
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